Saturday, December 6, 2008
just finish dota with junwei lol.
lose all the match-.-..
we anyhow play de lol.
anyhow spoil ppl game oso
damn fun.
later needa go sch for
bb training for cambodia -.-
sian lol.
meeting dex they all at 9am den go makan.
yesterday 5 nov (friday)
wake up at 1.30pm
waiting for someone to morning call.
but she never.
i waited for 15minutes.
then i go use com.
use awhile then go bath.
bath le then eat then go out le.
meet dex jordan junwei mathias at small mac.
junwei first to reach there.
lol..he this few days meet ppl
so early.
then all come le.
we go to krtc play lan again lol.
this few weeks we play lan alot of time.
then go in krtc de time got ppl
jio us play dota.
some paikia 1 lol.
first match we lose.
den 2nd match. abit zz..
we winning.
then they go bd.
den they oso last minute say bd allowed.
they don't want lose then bd.
pure noobs...
worst thing is that.
they bd oso lose lmao.
LOSERS -.-...
den 3rd game we jio other ppl play.
then oso win.
we 4v5 them.
we play till 6.30 i think.
then we go to gv.
watched wild child lol.
the show quite nice ah.
then watch finish le junwei chiong home lol.
cause he gonna be late.
den i follow him oso
den dex and jordan go makan.
then at inter saw darren and kaihern.
going christmas le!!
idk i should go for bb x'mas party anot -.-.
like abit sian ah.
cause no combine lol...joking
2more weeks to finish my
art N lvl course work.
haven even started doing it.
nvm that 1 don't care first lol.
come back from cambodia den settle.
now watching mtv :)
i wonder tmr i can tahan for how long sia.
now abit tired liao
feel like sleeping lol
if i sleep i later comfirm cannot wake up le -.-.
unlses she willing to morning call me ah.
but i doubt she will.
ahhh......
bottle up things to myself
feel terrible
i coulden't find someone to talk with.
or maybe i should say i prefer to keep things to myself?
cause i don't want anybody to understand how i feel.
outside :)
but
inside :( ahaha.
does he answer to prayer everytime?
i really starts to doubt him.
i pray many times.
but nothing happen
or maybe i din't realise?
my faith towards him starts to gone.
i don't feel his presence anymore.
i need an answer seriously.
or
maybe i should say this is
another stage for me?
if it is.
i'm now too tired to pass this stage.
i would rather die at this stage then
moving on.
i got no motivation anymore.
If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true
why don't you come back to me. 10:25 PM
